11/1       Ok one thing that I hate are hypocrites but you what I hate more, that parents that are hypocrites! Yea they tell me I cant go out with people who I go to church with because the way they see it is we only have so many chances in life so why start letting you take them so early! That makes me mad on soo many levels!

1. Because I cant take chances but he can drive without his seatbelt on!
2.  You cant stop something thats meant to happen from happening so why hold me back.
3. You tell me one thing and do another and I am sick of it!

11/2          Ok today I was trying to do my homework and I looked in my notes and I looked in my handouts and then I looked in my book and after I worked hard and read everything I realized I was going to fail my assignment and get in trouble because it wasnt there! I was going to make a big fat F!!  When I dont get into med school and dont become a successful psychologist I am going to blame all the little teachers that helped me out or should I say didnt help me out!!!

11/3        Ok Ok yea I didnt make a F but I made a D+ but ya know what I just dont care anymore because my Dad expects me to get pregnant in high school and drop out!! Well I hate to tell ya DAD even though were poor and you dont want to tell me about it I am not going to be what you "want me to be" just so you dont have to take care of me anymore! Another thing is I dont like it when my parents tell me things that I DONT need to know and then after they say it they act like it is nothing and when I ask them what they meant they say its nothing!  Well I hate to tell you guys I am not stupid I can figure out when something is going on and when people make comments I know what they are talking about even when they dont want to tell me!!!  Also they are moving Jeremy this week some time and I want to go see him but Lord knows that the min. I ask to go see him one more time (and I was promised that I would get to see him every weekend) they will say no we cant go becasue we are poor!  I will go see him before he leaves and there is nothing they will do about it!!!

11/04    Well this is what makes me mad today and that is almost nothing but the fact that people say one thing and do another!!!! But dosent that make every a little mad!!!

11/05 Ok things are getting better in my Biology class but she yelled at us today becase we went and talked to Mr. Mercer talked to her! Anywho I think she will getover it because she needed to be talked to! It was awful and still will be but maybe things will get better after she has her kid!

11/8        Ok yea My family life is sooo messed up right now I am ready to graduate and go to college!!! I really just want to get out of this house!  Why the first time something bad happens they lose it and talk all this crazy talk!  Why is the first minute of Finding Nemo so stinking sad thats stupid!!! Why do things that are suppose to taste like pizza not taste like pizza! At a time like this what am I suppose to do I want to take care of my mom but I also need to get away to this is hard me for!  Why dont people realize that!!

11/11     Well Well Well Nothing really has made me mad in the last few days other than the usual..parents!!! I have nothing to rant about at the moment thank you!!!

11/12        Well here has whats been bugging me lately ok first of all when people talk to someone one time and then call then there best friend.. thats soo stupid I mean chances are you know there first name and thats all you know about then and then they dont even remember your namebut if you think that you have a new best friend good for you!!  Another thing is that when you did like someone and then they get a girlfriend after about a year they are soo full of them self that when you try to talk to them he brings her up trying to make me jealous well guess what buddy!!!  IT DIDNT WORK AT ALL!!!! I am done with you and have been becase you are a liar!!!

11/27            Why do guys not tell when something is up?? Well every time I told you I know everything this proves itI told you this is how it would end long before it ever did!  Another thing is why dont you have the ***** to tell me something happened or something was said or whatever! Its not fair to keep me hanging would I do that to youNO!!! But I guess that I cared more about you or any other person than you cared about me!  Thats sad that I care more about people I dont even know than you care about a person you claimed to have loved!!!  Its weird thought I am not sad I am just really really unhappy!!! Another thing when a guy tells you all this stuff about him but forgets to mention that he is dating another girl and besides that I like this girl I really do but she is going to move in less that a year and when she does he going to have no one!!! Just his regular hoochies!!  Well I think that is it for todaybut believe me I will most likely have lost more things about the first one by this weekend!!

12/19     Ok here I go again sorry I havent been complaining much lately but a lot of stuff that makes me mad these days just doesn't need to be on here for the world to see well ok my friends!!! 

1. Ok girls are mean and we all know it but you think that they could be nice to the people that they call friends I mean seriously why do girls start to like a guy that another girl has a past with and tell everyone of there friends but that one and she knows that the others are going to tell them about it and then when the person does find out and asks the other girl she act stupid and is like well I just havent talk to you and when they ask well do you still like him and the other will usually answer no or avoid the question but I mean is it like they careif they did wouldn't they ask before they got with the guy!!!

2. Guys need I say more and I mean not just one of them well kind of but really all of them there so mean ya know and they don't care about other peoples feelings at all!! They are either really pushy because they want something and you wont give it to them or they just act like they dont care at all!!! They dont tell anything they make a decision and then after that they must expect everyone just to read there mind because they dont tell anyone anything at all!!!!!

3. Teachers!!!! Do they feel they have to show out for everyone??? Most of the time they are sooo nice but you just get one of there old students in there room or an administrator and its just like the claws come out!!

4. Parents!!!  They just want everything to be there way dont they and I mean I understand I am the same way everyone is but they dont have to be so pushy about everything in the freakin world!!! OMGOSH I am having someone come over so they want me to clean my bathroom they want it to look like they are the perfect parents and they do so much when I am doing it for them and I mean I have cleaned the bathroom 2 times already this week why in the world would I clean it again??

5. Friends (or people that were once called that and they know who they are)!!!  Something happened and I mean I miss having them around to talk to but I guess I just saw who they really were and I mean just because I got to a different school doesnt mean that I am so different than yall seriously!! Also but if one person is mad the other one is too but what the crap is that about it is between me and the other person not me and you and them you dont have to be such a wench about it ya know!!!

Well I think that is if for the moment I mean there is more but I cant curse and I cant say anything that would make people mad (more than I already am) so I am just going to go talk to all yall later and expect there to be a lot of rants over break because I am going to be with some of my least favorite people in the world over the next two weeks!!!!!!

12/28        I got this email today from a few people and it was one where you filled out all these questions about yourself and stuff that you wanted and all this crap.  One of the questions was "if you could bring back two people from the dead who would it be?".........to start off....WHAT A STUPID QUESTION!!!!!  I get this email from like ten people that I dont know and from some people that I do and on all of the people that i didnt know and on most of the ones from the people that I do know the answer to the question was "Darius and Shannon" with a little I love you note with it!!!!  These people didnt even know them and if they did it was because they saw them play basketball or something like that.... I understand you feel for the people that lost friends but dont try to get attention from it!!!! Think about the people that lost there best friends or there brother or there cousin....think about it from there point of view!!!

12/30    Ok some of my friends have been down...and if you know me you know that I dont like that at all and I will usually talk to them and help them out!!! Well ONE person really freaked me out and i could tell really needed to talk and when I asked them they flipped out on me!!! SORRY I WANTED TO BE A FREAKIN GOOD FRIEND!!! NEXT TIME YOU NEED ME I WILL JUST TELL YOU "F*** NO"!!!!!!!

1/1          Ok here I go once again and this time I am soo mad I am about to flip out on someone!!!!!!!!!!!!  I understand that we arent as close of friends as we were before but I still care about both of you so much and I am going to be there for either of you when something goes wrong!!!  So when I ask what is wrong dont freakin lie to me you little (you can put in your own word there)!!!!!!!  How stupid I am trying to act like a friend should and you are being a (use the same word as choose above)!!!  Its ok though because now I see how YOU really are.not both of you but the LIAR of the twoI freakin hate you and I am glad that you are no longer in my life so stay out for freakin good!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

1/05        OK I am just going to state the obvious...NOBODY WANTS TO TALK ABOUT THERE MONEY PROBLEMS....AND THEY REALLY DONT WANT TO INFRONT OF EVERYONE THEY KNOW!!!! You think people would know that!!!!!!

1/18       Ok well to start things off this wasnt a good week at all for a few reasons!! First of all there is this girl and she keep talking about how she has messed around with this guy that I really like and he is saying that it hasnt and will never happen!! Well to tell the truth even if it was for real I wouldnt want to know it now.its his past and even though I do care I am going to act like I dont and also it makes me mad because that makes me totally think he is laying for that reason but I also really dont trust her because she is just like that!! Also this guy had sex with this girl and I still cared about it he was still my friend and everything and it upset me because he was messing up his life so much and so I did what I always do when something is bothering me and I know I am going to be in a bad mood and need to talk to someone that wont lie to meI talk to my mom about it!! Shortly after they broke up and I was glad because I told him so and then he starts to give me this crap on how he still cares about me and every time he is around me all his feelings he as ever had about me comes back!! Sorry to tell you honey I am not that dumb I know what you were trying to do and I am not going to go for that!!! Then he was trying to get me to take him to homecoming!! If I wanted you to go with me I would ask!! I also told him at that point that I didnt think mom would like that and its the truth because she doesnt like the way he has treated me (even though she knows what I did to him also) and she hates the fact that he had sex with this girl and I told him that!! Well he flipped out because my mom knew he has sexWELL SORRY HUN THAT YOU WERE STUPID AND THOUGHT YOU GOT THAT GIRL KNOCKED UP!!! I NEEDED TO TALK TO SOMEONE SO I COULD CALM DOWN AND THEN TALK TO YOU ABOUT IT EVEN THOUGH I WANTED TO KILL YOU!!! Now you are just to good to talk to me because I needed to talk to someone!!

2/26           Hey there yall there has been alot that has been making me very mad these last few days like:

Cheerleading

Boys

Girls

Friends

Parents

Death

Church

School

Teachers

Ppl that assume things that they dont even know about at all!!!!!!

Just about everything....and I have no nope for anything at alll....nothing is going to get better it will just get worse and then I am going to be very angry!!!!!!MORE SO THAN NOW!!!!!!! If you have any questions about what I am angry about just call me and I will be glad to whine about it to you!! Thank You For Your Time!!!!

7/3        It seems like everything is making me mad these days… I don’t know if it’s because everyone I know is stupid or pms! I guess only time will tell!! Ok where to start well my mom is making me crazy. Sure mothers and daughters aren’t suposta get along but its like my mom just doesn’t realize that and also she thinks that I am the one that causes all the fight but she is the one that hit me for thinking I said something before she even asked me!! YEAH MOM ITS ALL MY FAULT THOUGH!! Also my dad is sick of the “crap” I listen to. He says that its “vulgar” and he hates hearing songs about sex, drinking, drugs, and such and he is tired of 101.9!! After I get chewed on for about ten minutes he changed the station to country and they sing about all the same things and they say all the same words but just because its country it seems to make it all better…I just don’t get that!! What really gets me is when he started to chew me out was when I was listening to “Don’t Tell Me” and he got mad about… if he would just listen to the song and hear that the song is about not having sex… OH WAIT HE WON’T DO THAT…. He only hears whatever he thinks he can get mad about and throw a little fit about and I am sick of that! I am just sick of my family!!! One more thing that makes me mad are girls that make themselves out to be more than they are or better than they are!!!